I dont know what to call this blog

I really don't. And here's why. How is it that I can respect someone for their knowledge of cooking, yet they contradict themselves in so many ways that it makes me loose my respect for them. Now that being said, I looked at myself today and thought, do I really want to learn new things, or am I just saying that because that is whats the right thing to say. And at first I figured it was the right thing to say and therefore am saying and I i believe those words now, but don't really want to learn...and then it happened again where I got pissed off and realized that no, I do want to learn, there are things to be learned from my sous chef, but there are a lot of things like running a kitchen and planning things that are bizarre and don't make a bit of sense, if anything contradict both health and safety laws as well as mentally it doesn't make sense.

For example, he enjoys telling me every day what I need to do and in what order, most of the time pushing off the little things. Well I am taught by EVERY chef I ever worked for, to multi task, you work quicker and more efficiently. So I went at it this morning arguing that doing one thing when you can for example bring something to a boil at the same time as opposed to doing one thing and waiting and waitign for it to drain...is stupid and pointless...so I got the line of every other chef is doing it wrong...and thats when I realized that, its not in my head that Im just sayign i want to learn..I actually do want to learn, however when someone who has a michelin star to his credit, has a health and safety certificate, adn doesnt flip his station or leaves meat out for 6 hours sometimes even more...then I know in this case I am right. I will take what I can and learn what I can, and just go with the flow for the next two months and take the crap in stride knowing, that I know what I am doing and if I get it wrong here, its because its a different way..and the way ive been taught is a lot better, for everyone.

yehuda